When Irony Bites You On The Ass, It Hurts.
March 30, 2008 — ZHere is what I’m like: I’m self-confessedly sane, sensible and principled. Also, as I pointed out recently and acerbically: rational, able to learn from my mistakes, analytical and a whole boatload of other self-serving things. However, when it comes to money, I am a complete fucking moron. I’m aware of this: I don’t have a credit card, or even a cash card; I have a small overdraft, and, up until now, no other debt. True, I have a tendency to go a bit off the rails when it comes to lingerie or boots, but that means sucking it up and cutting back somewhere else. However, I have unwittingly (or heedlessly, perhaps) landed myself in the financial shit. If it only affected me, I’d suck it up, bitter as it is, and not mention it. But it doesn’t affect only me, and I’m having trouble finding my way out of this one.
I’m not sure what the price of my slightly tarnished soul is, but I’m almost willing to sell it, at this point. In the meantime, Six* has set up a donation box for me (top right-hand corner). I don’t think anyone should have to pay for the privilege of reading me, or for my idiotic mistakes, but I shall still be extremely grateful for (and touched by) any contributions.
(I hope this doesn’t come across as ungracious as I feel it does. This is one of those times when my arrogance has given my pride a blow right to the gut, and I’m still reeling from the impact).
The view from here is a bit grim at the moment, so until my finances and I sort out our (considerable) differences, I’m going AWOL for a bit. I’ll still be able to post, and respond to comments (by proxy), but will not be able to cavort around the blogosphere as I once did.
I think that in a way it will be good for me – I quite like the idea of going back to writing in a (relative) void. On the other hand, apart from the fact that I’ll miss reading everyone else, one of the things I most enjoy is when a post somewhere is picked up on, and expanded on by other bloggers. I suppose the thing I’ll miss most is the sense of community**: as if I’d suddenly decided to give up my job and work from home. I shall have to rely on others to relay the gossip and drama and storms in teacups.
It’s au revoir, mes cheres, not adieu.
Z xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
*Because, for the ironic icing on the cake of irony, you can’t set one up if you don’t have a credit card.
**No irony or cynicism whatsoever there. I have been very moved by the affection and support I’ve been shown over the past couple of days.
March 28, 2008 at 4:33 pm
I wish I was Irony. Sorry to hear you’ve run adrift cash wise, it is always a bugger when the purse falls from beneath one. Perchance Sabine might put in as even though I have a PayPal account I don’t use it and I don’t have a Credit Card for any of these matters, I’m still wowed by the functionality of my wallet and telephone banking! xox Rups
March 28, 2008 at 5:58 pm
Hope things get better for you… it’s not nice keeping the wolf from the door!!
March 30, 2008 at 1:19 pm
Rupert, I would so much more have enjoyed you biting me on the ass
Thanks, Helga - and yes, it’s no fun at all
March 30, 2008 at 1:30 pm
Is your EdenFantasys pic linked in so that you are a partner with them? Perhaps people who are inclined to buy something from there could be persuaded to click from the pic on the right and thus be donating a small amount of the purchase price to you…? Just a thought. Hope things sort themselves out for you soon x
March 30, 2008 at 8:04 pm
Cake, I think it is - that’s the idea, anyway
March 30, 2008 at 9:51 pm
Sorry to hear you’re struggling like this, of course, and I hope you find a solution to the problem soon. No one likes to have financial hassles - somehow they feel like they undermine our whole life (possibly, I guess, because they do).
Keeping my fingers crossed for you …
March 30, 2008 at 10:00 pm
I also don’t have a credit or even a debit card. I live on a cash basis - it’s really better in the long run.
I hope things turn about quickly. xo
March 31, 2008 at 12:14 pm
I find myself in a very similar cash crunch; looking at losing just about everything, including the house. My heart is with you, Z. And I will miss your presence here; it was you that I first read when I began this part of my journey. On a daily basis your words inspire me to think.
I send you Love and Light, as well as my best wishes that things will work to your advantage very soon. Please take care.
xoxoxo
April 1, 2008 at 4:11 pm
Hey, Gal…I look forward to your return.
I hate these times. I’ve been through a few of them. Geez.
I hope the journey back is smooth for you and that you are able to smile through most of it.
April 5, 2008 at 10:32 am
Ro, Bunny, Akrazael and Gillette, thank you for your support. The end of this week is still a financial mess, but emotionally I’m in much, much better shape than I was at the beginning of it. Kisses.